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Don't

[ Hap sends it in a flash of a fugue state, his entire body engulfed in panic. Bright, blinding. Immediately, it fades; colors weigh him down, humiliation bleeding in. Hap crushes his eyes shut and yanks his glasses off, folding in on himself. Phone dark and vised in hand. ]

[temporicide]

[ She can only guess at what occurs on the other line; Roza is loath to attribute her own reactivity to other people, whom she broadly assumes to be better-composed than she is, a girl feeling as though every moment she is on the verge of total decompensation or ascension. Below is the chasm, above her beloved sky.

But it pings like fear. And like something base and awful and mean is growing all along her spine, irradiating her brain. ]

Your head has doorways in it you can go into and disappear, you know. It's the only way to survive jail.

I go visit every day. I'll bring you a book.
Or you can message me what you want, whichever.

[ Someone in a white coat told her once to be grateful for what she had.

There's no tonal difference here from her usual good nature, especially via text. But detached from her better self, past the heavy rain of her initial distress and well into the eerie eye of the storm, Roza wonders if he'd be grateful. ]

[angelhunter]

[ The buzz in his hand nearly stops his heart. Hap slips his glasses black on, smudge at the frames. He reads her message with a shaky breath, reads it again less unsteadily. He can't ask her to try and free him. It's too much. But maybe the sight of someone treating him like a man will remind everyone else that he is one. ]

A book.
Something dense. Layered. [ He can contemplate it while he's immobilized in the stocks. ]